Trapped by the Unseen: Why We Trust Invisible Forces over Reality

Today is June 20th. This is just a simple journal entry, a piece of my story that I would like to share.

I felt passed couple years was dealt a bullshit hand. I used to believe so deeply in fate and angels, hoping that fate could be changed and that angels would help me lead a better life. But that wasn’t the case at all. Instead, I was left completely exhausted by everything that happened to me day after day. At first, I didn't know where it was coming from, but later I realized that an invisible force was hitting me hard. I had nowhere to escape, nowhere to hide.

I have spoken with many people who attended the same spiritual courses. They experienced the very same issues but chose to put them aside, letting life go on as before. When I talked to them again two years later, I found they were still in the same situation. Some of them are now in a very poor mental state, almost approaching schizophrenia without even realizing it. Others tried traditional methods, spending a lot of money to get better, but nothing worked. They still have no idea how to solve this issue.

While I experienced the same thing initially, I decided to look deeper into it myself to understand what went wrong on my spiritual journey. After six years of researching my own experiences and various case studies, I have come to realize that the issue stems from within ourselves. When we place absolute belief in something, we surrender our entire selves—essentially giving official permission for something to happen, or authorizing someone else to act on our behalf. We naively thought this would benefit us, believing it would transform our environment so that everything and everyone around us would become great and abundant.

This is a critical issue, yet nobody seems to notice; everyone assumes it can simply be brushed aside. For the past six years, I have often felt like I was on the brink of collapse. I have painstakingly pieced back together the fragmented parts of my inner self, and I am still striving to fully comprehend this journey. I want to explore why we are so quick to trust invisible forces, yet so reluctant to believe in what is right in front of our eyes.

This journal is just the beginning of my search for answers. I choose to open my eyes to reality, to question what has been left unquestioned, and to document this truth—not just for myself, but for anyone still lost in the dark. After years of surviving these unseen storms, I finally choose to anchor myself in the tangible world. Life goes on, but this time, it will be lived on my own terms, rooted firmly in what is real.